, lousing murray colevin, anthony shadid, having a friend and colleague, austin tice taken and now it's now five months with no news. that's really, really hard. and it has made this conflict like an inbelieveably difficult one to cover and that's just on your personal level. then you take into account your experiences when are you living in these places. because it's not like a normal sinarrio where you stay in a hotel and a driver and shuttle back and forth every day, are you living in these people's house. i have been sleeping in a room where the people who were killed during the day are underneath the room, now he in the garage awaiting their burial the next morning. i was in a room with women having tea when news that one of their brothers had been killed. and i'm in the room with them while they're screaming and crying and ripping out their hair. and that, and you're living with these peoplement and they are giving you shelter and food. and as a human being, that is really, really, really wrenching. i mean it's incredibly-- we talk so much about the logistical challenges of covering s